Elysiumovo "Prenoćište rečenica"

[Rion]

Elysium kaže:
I svima vama ostalima koji ste utjecali na mene...

Nema na čemu.

[Elysium]

Uncertain in love she was
Or was I mistaken her with me
At the night of fire and noise
In the crowded dreams
When I met her by the steeple
With that ribbon in her hair
She laid her burden on my shoulders
Even angels couldn’t bear
And her brittle look, it crumbled
In my hands of twisted fear
For I reached a place Forbiden
Yes, I reached a place Forbiden
And I let her slip away..


I remember way she gazed
Elusive thoughts of eyes so green
And her ghost, it never settled
Haunts me like a beast
Ever since that day of Wisdom
I tried to balance right and wrong
My excuses fell upon her
Oh, my excuses fell upon her
She couldn’t understand..


Mists have flown to some lovers
From dark alleys to my own
Desire lingered for a second
After a second she was gone
Now I see it all so clearly
As I gave a final thought
She became as poor as number
God, she became as poor as number
As I walked into a bar..

[Elysium]

Memories are there to haunt me on
I’m their fucken dog on a loose
Lonely nights in my bed, hues of eyes so red
Gusts forsaken like an outrages booze
So in came all the vacant questioning
On and on, on and on
I often cursed God he didn’t left me unborn

My values departed me way back
Sins became my friends in sultry hot air
It’s hard living in remorse by the sweetest sexy whores
For they only need one thing to share
Their hands embraced me, their minds wide open
On and on, on and on
Garment of a harlot and something to mourn

I drifted from home when I was ten
And I had no thoughts of coming there again
Was it the drugs or something else, I fear the demon in me dwells
It’s a struggle and I’m not winning home
I was always a scum and I’ll stay one always
On and on, on and on
Sullen was the evening when I was finally born

At the end of a day I think of her
Times when she loved her first born son
Life ended up so cruel, from dark destiny to fool
I guess now her work is done
I’m fighting weeping bridges and roaring
On and on, on and on
Not one day came without a shivering dawn

Path of obstacles and suffer is my way
And a true storm on her way to come
A game without no rules, where you question all your tools
And they look out for a winner and you know you won’t be one
Atonement floats on and convulsion follows
On and on, on and on
At least you know you’re not all alone

As a morning came I awoke afraid
And for a first time encouraged by a tear
Forsaken by myself, elation lingered on a shelf
Covered with dust of years that passed me with a leer
When I see all that I can’t help but foaming
On and on, on and on
All the shivering and trembling, they made me forlorn

There’s some kind of emptiness of love towards them all
For my father and my sister, God rest their souls
O God, my hardest regret not seeing sister when she set
Sail on to the land where even righteous fear to go
And that kind of feeling kept me going
On and on, on and on
Umbrage of hers, like mine outworn

There was something sinister about that eve
That rainy night one family was destroyed
Everyone took his own course, each one feeling his remorse
As if there was no fucken way to avoid
All the dismay after that kept on growing
On and on, on and on
Malediction or not, but in that sort of form

The night when she died, I passed out with her
And I laid right on the floor, my face towards the ground
Now I’m returning back home, more in a pilgrim’s form
And I wouldn’t like it any way around
I wish she was there to see me sprouting
On and on, on and on
Celestial sign was given, I’m coming home

Waiting for me like an inquisition
Luminary hopes were quelled long time ago
That big old ivory door, with a tale so often sore
That I fear now what awaits me, and I shiver and I crawl
All my feelings united, like a river flowing
On and on, on and on
It was so beautiful that I could see them upon


Miscreation came like rogue on front door
Her eyes for second brightened, then everything was torn
So she gently closed the door, started crying for us all
Faces locked in grimase and yet waiting to be born
Condonation was reluctant, like a string dangling
On and on, on and on
Slender was the moon after a dense, cryptic storm

[Elysium]

Tell me how to leave the things behind
Misery of every kind
Tell me how to make a room for something
That I never felt around..

Maybe I’m the one of rare that can’t do
Simple things while light is away
Maybe I’m the one of those who like to
Suffer along the way..

Why do we all fear to cry
Fear to cry
Why is so hard to cry
Alone
All the fears we leave behind
All the answers we are overawed
To find
All the nights of humble dreams
I await them in my room
So quiet seems

Tell me how to make my peace alone
When all of the healers are gone
Try to find a spark of light inside me
A bush that is burning on..

Maybe there’s more to life then passion
Once that dwelled so certain in tears
So show me all the rest so I could follow
Path of the one who hears..


Tell me how to speak of life out loud
Moments when I miss my crowd
Sickening feeling for those who build up
Shelters to hide in proud..

Maybe I’m not far away from them, so
Why to look at them as the blind
Apostasy looks and knolls the same from
The place you don’t wanna find..

[Elysium]

Can you recognize a feeling
Can you sense the coming of the rain
I never can
Always takes a part of me
Despair of rain keeps fallin’ down upon me
Keeps fallin’ endlessly
Rain is like a sin
Creepin’ in on you
Today the sky was stolen
She took her clarity of blue
Despair of rain keeps fallin’ down upon me
Keeps fallin’ endlessly


Those moments just before
Those moments always turn so cruel
Like a curse
Rushin’ into life so dark
Despair of rain keeps fallin’ down upon me
Keeps fallin’ endlessly
Breathtakin’ visions
Storms up in the sky
Today the sky was stolen
I failed, I could hear her cry
Despair of rain keeps fallin’ down upon me
Keeps fallin’ endlessly

[Elysium]

I met an angel along the way
Looked so tired, just like me
I recognized him differently, something eyes can’t see
They say I’m good at that, at least they say
How far can I go
Before I lose myself amongst the crowd
When do we stop marching up so proud
It all seems so endlessly shallow
Sky’s gone yellow
I felt anxiety of approaching him
So we kept walking together
In silence..



Like a flower ready to open up again
Sounds so sharp, days no longer grey
I met an angel along the way



It may have been a dream
Angels don’t exist, not for me
On more emotional phase for me, another prophecy
But he knew me so well, I was naked before him
Who’s the one I’m lying to
Some things are better to be left alone
Awakenings come at the break of dawn
On a beautiful morning I’ve been a witness
Crying forgiveness
Looking at each other, no words
With no words he drifted away
Left me wander
O yeah, I met an angel along the way..

[Elysium]

Night descended on a town, few people walking on
They are wearing masks and just like me they are gone
From all the smiling questions Why
And all the faces that are best forgotten
Looking,
Waiting,
For all the answers to appear beneath us all..

Like a poet thinking his words are merely toys
In this night of passion I have kneeled upon such noise
I have no word to share out loud
She took my gift never to be given
Back to,
Man who,
Loved her once in all the flurry..



And if I could
Feel the love for only one more time
I would have spread my arms like wings, just to embrace her
For it would make
This journey that I’m bound to go
Happy within of just a thought what awaits me after



Last intimidating lust written up in stormy sky
Waiting for a thunder to destroy remaining sigh
I’ve seen a sorrow looking back
Even from the eyes of innocent, but knowing
Someone’s
With me
Through this horror, trumpets howling



And if I could
Feel the love for only one more time
I would have walked out on a rain to dance with thunders
To feel it deep
Deeper then any foreign sense could go
Into the world of promises and distant wonders

[Elysium]

Reflection comes in quickly
Even when you think there’s nothing
Simple thing can be a trigger
Unexpected comes in knockin’
I’m afraid to look things closely
And you know you have to face it
Here and now, one more time
She stayed pretty just as always
And the night was full of voices
When I’d touch her skin so softly
In my arms..


And I yearned for days that followed
And I yearned for years that passed
I was lost and never found
In the tower of my sorrow
Like a child


Foaming night of beauty
Yet much more then name can say
Music turned on us so sore
Violins, they chose this day
For the meeting of lost souls
And I know you are the one
That stands before me
I could hear her cry, in my mind
And all the words, they stayed unspoken
There was nothing left to say
Except goodbye..


And I yearned for days that followed
And I yearned for years that passed
I was lost and never found
In the tower of my sorrow
Like a child


I like the way she trembled
Every time I’d hold her hand
And the angels from above us
And the demons who are dammed
Just as much they felt her presence
And the path that is untrodden
Must be passed, you and I
We are forsaken, lost in time
She was standin’ still in front me
I could see the angels fallin’
From the sky..

[Elysium]

Church bells roared out like a lash for a pray
And heavy rain descended down on track
I could hear my bones cracking under weight
Of both me and my bundle of an uncharted faith

And I wait and I wait for her voice
She ain’t coming back

It started raining like there’s no second day
Tormented child beneath canopy of hate
Outside the sounds of the sob and the cry
Angels inside me looked at me and smiled

And I wait and I wait for her voice
She ain’t coming back

Inside the chapel air was heavy to breathe
Dense from the lament that smouldered around
I could see her face like some overseer
Belligerent by blood and unfaithfull to fear

And I wait and I wait for her voice
She ain’t coming back

Diminished from the day she departed from me
I’ve searched the path long knitted with thee
I’m full of rage and I can’t keep him still
So I howl with the wolves and I curse and I shrill

And I wait and I wait for her voice
She ain’t coming back

Timid once I was, now I’m overawed
My eyes will never settle on her beauty again
River’s gone wild and I can’t reach the shore
Above all the shadows canopy changed not at all..

[Elysium]

It was the perfect end of autumn
For a man of broken dreams
I’m done with my journey
As well as my dreams

I took shelter from the shadows
On this cliff of peace
Through the mist of ocean fragrance
She blessed me with kiss

And the sky was pouring
Beauty on to the waves
Narrow bridge that’s behind us
Open only for slaves

And the ocean, it was ready
To play an old song
I could feel her within me
Soreness moved in along

And the river got so wild
To pass across
I’ve seen you in the room, you held
A wodden cross

She drifted from me long before
Water turned to wine
Her breasts so sweet and gentle
And no longer mine

But I was a fool to forgive her
I was a man possessed
Once blessed with her beauty
Like an echo of past

All that I’m left of her
Is a locket of the lamb
It shines bright when night falls
My lamb of the lambs

I still love her dearly
Beneath that deceptive cloak
And her hair that I’m longing
In the valley of smoke

But the river got so wild
To pass across
I’ve seen you in the room, you held
A wodden cross

It was the perfect end of autumn
For a man of broken dreams
I’m done with my journey
As well as my dreams

I took a bow towards the heaven
And those majestic sheep
I’ve dived into the ocean
With her kiss on my lips

Now the river is too wild
To pass across
I’ve seen you in the room, you held
A wodden cross

[Elysium]

Sometimes I just can’t help myself
Sometimes I lose my touch
One thought can change a lot
Sins of lust, or simply a woman
Everything just as much
At the sunset I saw her comin’
On dew mornin’ left me cryin’
Only in my dreams..


So don’t ever think she’s to preciuos
Don’t ever draw a line
Man, say it proudly
She’s mine
O yeah, she’s mine


Rain keeps fallin’ I’m gettin’ older
Shadows gettin’ smaller every night
I never found her
But I know that she exists
Girl of skin so white
One day will welcome life’s final chapter
One day, I’m sure, I’ll come across her
One beautiful day..

[Elysium]

Since we were kids
People considered us different
Had ideas of our own
Being present to the village mother’s
Constant mourn
Runnin’ through the graveyards

It was just a game
Mistake of them to seek the point
Promoted into rebels
Later recognized by local priest
As the sinful devils
Runnin’ through the graveyards

How beautiful it was
Gloomy nights when everyone’s asleep
Each grave with regret
Dancin’ through the night so dark
We liked the smell of death
Runnin’ through the graveyards

Mothers gettin’ tired
Bled to death so we could hear
Distant call of shame
Until one day I saw the gravestone
And came upon my name
Last day of us
Runnin’ through the graveyards
Runnin’ through the graveyards

[-Shevchenko-]

Elysium kaže:
Jadna smo mi država. Kreneš pisati o Ljubavi, a ono, zatekneš se kako koristiš riječ ˝klati.˝

zar zaista misliš da je problem u državi?

[-Shevchenko-]

Elysium kaže:


-Rijetko kada čovjek izreče toliko rečenica, a da ništa ne kaže...

-Što sam joj sve darovao? Osim ljubavi...?
Pa, ne znam, našla se tu jedna crvena latica ruže, nekoliko jabuka i dvije mandarine, tri-četiri posebna kolačića, zatim jedna knjiga, jednu malenu crvenu bilježnicu umotanu u jednu od mojih najdražih marama (neka sada ubire mirise njenog divnog vrata), pa onda jednu tanku roza majicu za njen rođendan koju nikada nisam vidio na njoj (toga mi je uvijek beskrajno žao), jednog sebe u svim nijansama koje su mi poznate, i tako...
Naposljetku, ja sam je volio...

Predivno. Nemoj misliti da ostalo nije divno ali ovo je naproto - predivno.

[Elysium]

Zar ovo moje netko i čita??
Zaista??!
Mislio sam kako mi moderatori tjedno samo okrenu veći broj čitanja, i da to je to..
Kad ono, iznenadim se s mjeseca na mjesec..

Doista je lijepo čuti nešto, pohvalu, pokudu, samo da nije tišina..



Pitaš me zar doista mislim da je problem u državi?
Da se razumijemo, problem Nikada nije u državi. Problem je Uvijek u pojedincima koji čine i dio su države. Koji "ginu" za nacionalne fiksideje, kojima je odraz života konstantno podgrijavanje desne strane srčane klijetke koja se odaziva i pod imenom "Uvijek Spremna Uzavrela Nacionalna Krv"
Onda kada sam pisao ovu novelu, tada je spomen i posljedica rata bila strahovito aktualna i sveprisutna. Ljudi kao da su se napajali sjećanjima i tim moćnim glagolima, poput "klati."
Spomenuo sam se u noveli nečega što me tada neizmjerno smetalo..
Ili sam upravo pogriješio što sam spomenuo..?

[-Shevchenko-]

Da, pogriješio si spomenuvši to, u meni se uskomešala "Uvijek Spremna Uzavrela Nacionalna Krv" i potrudit ću se da tvoje omalovažavanje nas Hrvata koji smo se borili za ovu zemlju bude kažnjeno. Protestirat ću kod moderatora.

Otkud ih samo izvlačiš?

[Elysium]

-Shevchenko- kaže:
Da, pogriješio si spomenuvši to, u meni se uskomešala "Uvijek Spremna Uzavrela Nacionalna Krv" i potrudit ću se da tvoje omalovažavanje nas Hrvata koji smo se borili za ovu zemlju bude kažnjeno. Protestirat ću kod moderatora.

Otkud ih samo izvlačiš?

Koga izvlačim: rečenice..? ili Hrvate Spavače, koji samo čekaju ne bi li izašli na megdan..? ili nešto treće..?

Bojim se, prijatelju, da se moja malenkost u ovakvim trenucima povlači isključivo za jednim stihom Pessoa:
"Više volim ruže, ljubavi moja, od domovine.."

[Elysium]

I dreamt a dream, Lord
Wasn’t pretty at all
You were gone amongst us all
I’ve seen a light, Lord
Upon a city of mourn
Shining down from the great beyond
And all the prophets came
With their visions of end
They say a sign from above was sent
And all the mothers cried
And dead babies crying too
And fathers joined in for a farewell song too
I’ve seen a world, Lord

Tell me
Is this desire
For no one
I have seen to pray

I’ve seen a storm, Lord
Comin’ down upon
And all the peace died with dawn
I’ve heard a laughter, Lord
Laughter of the whores
They were dancin’ naked on the shores
I’ve seen the priests, Lord
Forsaken out they came
They were screamin’ from an agony of pain
I’ve seen it all, Lord
Both the hell and beyond
Must say that the prophets weren’t so wrong
I’ve seen a world, Lord

Tell me
Is this desire
For no one
I have seen to pray

I’ve seen You standin’ there
Lookin’ from above
Down on all your creation and love
And I’ve seen myself in there
In a role of a whore
Lyin’ naked on a kitchen floor
And the devil came to me
Lookin’ for my soul
From the distance I could see him crawl
And all the birds in sky
Finished with their flight
Red lightness turned into night
I’ve seen a world, Lord

[Elysium]

I’ve seen a lot of fallen angels
In the land of dying sun
At night when all the demons do come
That’s when you think the work is done

All my friends, they crossed the river
Where they vanished in the night
And all my friends, oh how they shivered
On distant shores of streaming sigh

An old man sailed through the raging water
Relentless curse of all these years
In heed he talked to me of passion
That dwells in land of pilgrims tears

I’ve seen a lot of fallen angels
In the land of dying sun
At night when all the demons do come
That’s when you think the work is done


He showed me where to cross the river
Finally to join all my friends
In front of me a road to nowhere
That all my friends already passed


Evening fog swallowed up the mountains
Peace was ready to begin with mourn
Breathing sorrow echoed through the ruins
Into the Fields of Thousand Tears

I’ve seen the gates of both the Hell and Heaven
And I know which way they chose
And the reapers from the closest valley
Kissed me off with fragrant rose

[Elysium]

I was good in pretending, oh those lovely tender eyes
The Virtue was Deception, it had both cheeks and the smiles
She cast a spell on me, with those lonely vacant cries

I walked out alone

I opened my window to hear the tower’s chime
But the sounds got bitter, just like everything in time
And we drank to the bottom our final cup of wine

I walked out alone

In the Sunday’s afterglow, serenity was despised
Hung on the front door, like a celebration prize
My hand reached out, I’ve been smothered in her lies

I walked out alone

So tell me, please my love
Is this the way to end
Show me my fears, my love
But don’t cry again

Grief and Devotion, to much to shad one tear
I’ve been sent out with the curses, and the grin face full of leer
She sat down on a balcony and trembled like a deer

I walked out alone

Now I’m left to drift on this open sea alone
And the children, they despise me, all my mistresses outworn
People say I’ll die in sin in the mist of velvet dawn

I walked out alone